Unhappy with Yourself?

Why is it that when we are unhappy with the way things are going in our own lives we try to make a mess out of other people's lives too? I got home yesterday and my husband was in a very somber mood. I asked him how his day was and he said it sucked. I asked what happened and he told me that evidently the money issue was more of a problem for him than he thought it would be. My take on the subject......

He feels inadequate and doesn't know how to deal with it so he tries to make me feel inadequate also. I don't need anyone pointing fingers at me, I deal with my own crap in my own time. I had to carry the weight of the secret of the debt on my shoulders by myself for months. The secret was tearing me up and I was getting angry and doing to him what he is now doing to me. Now that it is out in the open I feel much better, but he is miserable knowing there is nothing he can do about it. Why? Because he doesn't have a job and every day that goes by that he doesn't have a job he just gets that much more miserable. There is a cure. Get out there and get a job. Then we won't have to worry about charging groceries or necessities and running up the debt. Yes everything I charged was not groceries or necessities, but for once in my life I didn't have to answer to anybody and I was trying my best to buy my happiness. Well, guess what! Didn't work, did it. I realize now what a mistake it was to do what I did. I am living with the consequences and dealing with it the best I can. I can't snap my fingers and come up with that much money, just like he can't.

I'm much happier with myself now that I'm not bearing the burden of the dreaded "secret" by myself. Whew, what a relief.